Two hour long conversation with Ben, who's wife is a midwife. Touching onFrank Breech, writing epiphanies, being in-lone with yourself. I have really been enjoying conversation and connections with males in which there is no possibility of a sexual relationship. The conversation continues simply out of the enjoyment of itself, of sharing ideas and experiences. Why in most instances did I assume that the males to which I am speaking main reasons for continuing conversations with me is sexual interest? Why can't I attribute it to the fact that they may really be enjoying the conversation? Were these thoughts because I'm trying to protect myself from being hurt and feeling fooled? Are they because I no longer feel that I am an interesting enough person to hold a conversation with, without the possibility of a sexual relationship building? Perhaps a bit of both. We'll see when I leave my train bubble, whether or not this assumption creeps back over me during my next few conversations with males who are not sexually available.
Thursday, October 8, 2015
More friends
Running behind, looks like we'll be home late on the 8th. Met a man who has been travelling for the last year through working for room and food. Great for someone without kids, but until my kids can pitch in, not really an option for me, but cool idea none the less.
Two hour long conversation with Ben, who's wife is a midwife. Touching onFrank Breech, writing epiphanies, being in-lone with yourself. I have really been enjoying conversation and connections with males in which there is no possibility of a sexual relationship. The conversation continues simply out of the enjoyment of itself, of sharing ideas and experiences. Why in most instances did I assume that the males to which I am speaking main reasons for continuing conversations with me is sexual interest? Why can't I attribute it to the fact that they may really be enjoying the conversation? Were these thoughts because I'm trying to protect myself from being hurt and feeling fooled? Are they because I no longer feel that I am an interesting enough person to hold a conversation with, without the possibility of a sexual relationship building? Perhaps a bit of both. We'll see when I leave my train bubble, whether or not this assumption creeps back over me during my next few conversations with males who are not sexually available.
Two hour long conversation with Ben, who's wife is a midwife. Touching onFrank Breech, writing epiphanies, being in-lone with yourself. I have really been enjoying conversation and connections with males in which there is no possibility of a sexual relationship. The conversation continues simply out of the enjoyment of itself, of sharing ideas and experiences. Why in most instances did I assume that the males to which I am speaking main reasons for continuing conversations with me is sexual interest? Why can't I attribute it to the fact that they may really be enjoying the conversation? Were these thoughts because I'm trying to protect myself from being hurt and feeling fooled? Are they because I no longer feel that I am an interesting enough person to hold a conversation with, without the possibility of a sexual relationship building? Perhaps a bit of both. We'll see when I leave my train bubble, whether or not this assumption creeps back over me during my next few conversations with males who are not sexually available.
